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Shaw: 'That's not the type of guy I am'

Suspended Blackhawks forward expresses remorse for slur; Chicago faces elimination against St. Louis in Game 5 on Thursday

by Brian Hedger / Correspondent

Andrew Shaw's apology

Andrew Shaw's apology

Andrew Shaw delivers an emotional apology before the Blackhawks head to St. Louis for Game 5

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CHICAGO -- Saying "that's not the type of guy I am," Chicago Blackhawks forward Andrew Shaw expressed remorse Wednesday for using a homophobic slur while in the penalty box late in a 4-3 Game 4 loss Tuesday against the St. Louis Blues.

Shaw was suspended one game by the NHL for the slur, fined $5,000 for directing an obscene gesture toward on-ice officials in the same game, and is required to undergo sensitivity training.

"I came here to talk to you guys today," Shaw said Wednesday at a previously scheduled press conference at O'Hare International Airport. "I wanted to apologize for my actions. I have no excuses for anything. I want to apologize to the gay and lesbian community. That's not the type of guy I am."

Shaw and the Blackhawks each released a statement on the issue. The suspension was handed down a few hours after Shaw's press conference.

"While Mr. Shaw was apologetic and remorseful for both the offensive comments and the inappropriate gesture directed at the on-ice officials, he must be held accountable for his actions," NHL Senior Executive Vice President of Hockey Operations Colin Campbell said in a statement. "The emotion of the moment cannot and will not be a mitigating factor for the conduct that is expected of an NHL player."

Video: Toews on Andrew Shaw, Game 5

Shaw will miss Game 5 in St. Louis on Thursday (9:30 p.m. ET; NBCSN, SN, TVA Sports, CSN-CH, FS-MW). The defending champs, down 3-1 in the Western Conference First Round series, would be eliminated with a loss.

Shaw said he watched video of the incident when he got home Tuesday and didn't like what he saw.

"It was hard to see. Emotions got the best of me and I didn't get any sleep last night. It was tough on me," Shaw said. "You know, I'm upset with myself, obviously.

"I want to apologize to the organization, the NHL, my teammates, my family and my friends. I don't know; obviously I'm sorry. It's a tough time for me right now."

After his initial statement, Shaw was asked if he would ever use the slur again.

"I'll never use that word again, that's for sure," Shaw said. "I do [understand]. I mean, I get it. It's a hurtful word. It's 2016 now. It's time that everyone is treated equally. It's a hurtful word, I know that. I'm sorry and I want to apologize."

Video: Coach Q on Andrew Shaw, Game 5

Shaw has two goals and two assists in the series. His absence will leave a void on the Chicago forecheck and in front of the net during power plays.

"We're in a really tough spot," coach Joel Quenneville said about Shaw missing Game 5. "But I think that there's been some learning situations as we've progressed here [this season] and I think our group's had situations comparable in the past that we've had to learn from that make us better players and better people as well."

Blackhawks captain Jonathan Toews said he hopes the situation will be used as an educational tool going forward.

"I think it's a moment to bring more attention to this sort of thing, especially pro sports," Toews said. "At the end of the day, I think it is a teachable moment for us to realize that going forward it has to be something that is scrutinized much more, something we think about much more and something that we're much more critical of ourselves, when it comes to these matters."

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